I close my eyes…
And wish upon the darkness to show me better times…
I breathe in deep…
And exhale a name forgotten by my conscious mind…
My eyes still shut…
Memories flash before me of a life long lost…
My heart still aches…
Through the pain of losing her my soul is tossed…
Don’t want to move…
Wallow in my sadness for a little while…
Replay the scenes…
Ask myself a thousand questions, put myself on trial…
Tears roll down…
I can’t change the past and it isn’t fair…
Open my eyes…
Back to my life and out the window I continue to stare…
Into the black…
I would turn around but I know there is no turning back…
Into the black…
The past is set, nothing I can do to change the fact…
Into the black.
-8 May 1995